The world doesn't see the infertile.
The world doesn't see the woman who has been pregnant 11 times but only has 3 children.
The world doesn't see the woman who got dragged so very deep into the dark pit of depression by loss after loss after loss while trying to have her third child. Thank God she had her first two children to ground her and keep her tied to everything else that is important in her life.
The world sees the field trip going, kid schlepping mom who loves her life.
The world doesn't see the mom who aches to have a fourth child and who knows that may never happen because of the delays caused by infertility.
The world doesn't see the mom who never got to hold her daughter.
The world doesn't see the woman whose heart shattered over and over again.
The world sees the woman whose life is blessed beyond measure. I am blessed with a spouse who loves me beyond measure and children who are growing into fine young men. I am blessed with a fabulous family and friends I treasure like family.
The world sees me but not all of me.
This is me with the disguise stripped away.
********************Today is the last day of National Infertility Awareness Week...April 24th-May 1st 2010. Click on over to the NIAW page and the Resolve.org homepage. According to the CDC, about 12% of people of childbearing age experience infertility. That is more than 1 in 10. That means that someone you know has gone through this. Educate yourself.