"Security is mostly a superstition. It does not exist in nature, nor do the children of men as a whole experience it. Avoiding danger is no safer in the long run than outright exposure. Life is either a daring adventure, or nothing. " -Helen Keller

Saturday, August 23, 2008

How do I feel?!?!?!?

I am nervous, happy, scared, excited, and about 1000 other feelings I can't quite put words to. I have found a new OB/GYN office and we are officially getting ready to try for our last child. After getting all the ridiculous paperwork filled out, I was called back. All the nurses I met seemed really nice. No one came across as short tempered or bitchy. I really liked the nurse who worked directly with Dr. BB. Its a shame he is exclusively a GYN and I won't get to have her as my nurse if I manage to get pregnant again.

Dr. BB spent about 10 to 15 minutes talking about my past history with me and then gave me a general overview of the approach the docs at this office would like to take. He agreed that the course of action (progesterone and lovenox) would likely remain unchanged. However, he said since I am a new patient in their practice, they would get me a referral to a perinatalogist that they work with and that doc would review my records and sign off on the course of action. Then, Dr. BB made me laugh...not an oh my God thats funny laugh but a laugh of irony. He said, " If you are going to schedule a pregnancy, its better to go ahead and get the referal now. That way we won't be scrambling to make sure you have what you need." I let out a sharp bark of laughter and he gave me a look. I told him that the thought of "scheduling" a pregnancy after everything I've been through was to ridiculous to be believed. Luckily, he seemed to realize that he had just placed his foot firmly in his mouth and said, "All I meant is that since you are planning on trying instead of just letting things happen, we should go ahead and schedule your referal." I'm glad he realized how ridiculous it was to speak of scheduling a pregnancy to someone who has been through all the losses I've been through.

I think this office will be a good fit for me. I don't feel as comfortable there as I did at my old OB's office but I had 7+ years at the old office so I don't expect to immediately feel as at home in the new office. *Sigh* its just a shame that my old office is almost an hour and a half away.

So...to recap, new office, mirena iud out, referral being scheduled...guess now we just have to wait and see where things go from here.

24 comments:

Beautiful Mess said...

WOW, that IS exciting! I'll be thinking and sending you lots and lots of good juju on your journey.Have a GREAT weekend
-D *ICLW*

Margaret said...

Good luck on this journey. And don't forget to have fun. ;-)

I am SO excited!!!!

Tiffanie said...

have fun scheduling your baby in:) yes, i find that some of the most educated people say some of the most rediculous things. good luck w/ your new doc.

thanks for the comment - ICLW

Katrina said...

Yay! Things are happening! Best of luck that this won't be a long road to success!

Cassandra said...

Congrats on finding a doc and office that you like! Best wishes for getting a baby to agree to your schedule. :)

kateypie35 said...

I wish you the best of luck! I will try to keep checking back in...to cheer you on!

ICLW! : )

Jaymee said...

Good luck on your new journey.
Thank you for the comments.

(ILCW)

Arpee said...

sometimes, the doctors are so accustomed to treating a case technically that they are not aware that they sound funny or ironic to the layman!

Wish you the best in your attempt to have you last child!

baby~amore' said...

Goodluck with new ON GYN and the baby making journey.


Here from IComLeavWe... (adoption,pregnancy loss, IVF twins)
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Stacie said...

Exciting news. Here's to "scheduling" sooner rather than later. Best wishes!

Here from ICLW.

tina said...

So glad you've found an OB/GYN you like. Good luck on the fantastic journey you are setting out on!

Renee said...

I like that. "Scheduling your pregnancy". How Franklin Planner-esque. In any event - cheers to hopes and possibilities and taking a jump into the unknown. It says something about you as a person that even with loss, you can still chase a dream, and that's a beautiful thing!
Here from ICLW

Elize said...

Hi! Just wanted to wish you well on your journey! Sounds exciting. Thanks for your comments!

Kate said...

Here from ICLW. Good luck and all the best!!

mom2manyblessings said...

That's wonderful, Kristin! Sounds like you've found a great place. Wishing you all the best.

Faith said...

Here from ICLW...thanks for the comment! Good luck on this new course -- finding a doc is a major achievement!

Martha said...

Best Wishes to you and your family, how exciting! Sounds like the MD office is helpful and off to a good introduction. Thank you so much for your comment on my blog about living Teletubby, that made me LOL!

Nic said...

I really hope this is the start of something wonderful for you.

Lovenox...niiiiiiice. If you ever want to talk bruises, please just grab me...been there, done that, have the lovely memories

Thanks for the hint to the SPIDER issue. Have now coated the house in lemon. Everything.

MrsSpock said...

Good luck! Glad you found a nice OB- sometimes they can be hard to find...

Margaret said...

Oh and come see the award I gave you. HUGS.

Silver said...

Good Luck. Glad to hear you found an OB you like!

Karen said...

I'm glad you found a doctor you feel comfortable with. Hopefully that's the last time he puts his foot in his mouth. Wishing you the best.

(dropping by from ICLW-thanks for your comment on my blog))

Ken's choice said...

Kristin, I'm so happy for you both,
hope all goes well and quickly,

look after yourself and enjoy the journey !!
love,
Henny

Barb said...

Glad you're in a happy place with the docs!