"Security is mostly a superstition. It does not exist in nature, nor do the children of men as a whole experience it. Avoiding danger is no safer in the long run than outright exposure. Life is either a daring adventure, or nothing. " -Helen Keller

Wednesday, April 04, 2012

Brought to you by the letter D

rained, dark, dreary, and, dare I say, depressed.My son is on day 38 of his migraine. The last time we went into the neurologist, they put him on topamax which is an FDA migraine preventative drug. While on the topamax, there has been some improvement but not nearly the improvement we want or need to see. I called the neurologist today and he wants Marty to up his topamax dose for at least the short term (he has another appointment on Monday, April 9th). When I told Marty this he got agitated and said that since he's been taking the topamax and especially since we doubled the dose a week ago on Tuesday, it's been getting harder and harder for him to get to sleep and he's been waking up easier. So, I look it up and sure enough, difficulty sleeping is a possible side effect of topamax.

The one fucking thing that has seemed to help at all and it's causing a different problem...damn it all to hell. It just isn't fair. Marty already went through that fucked up reaction to allergy medicine that caused all the problems last semester. He had been working his ass off this semester and now we can't catch a break when it comes to dealing with this migraine.

I am seriously worrying that he won't be able to finish out this semester. While I'm sure we could probably get it wiped off his record, that would still leave him a semester behind and out of sync with his friends. And, summer school isn't really an option. Because summer school isn't like it was when I was in school. Because of the economy and horrible budget cuts, there are only 30 summer school slots available at each school that offers summer school. That means that at Marty's high school of over 2200 kids, there are only 30 slots. And, freshmen are at the bottom of the totem pole for getting one of those slots...not to mention that it is impossible to complete an entire semester in summer school because of the way it's structured.

And, that is why today my post is brought to you by the letter D...d is for drained...d is for dark...d is for dreary...and, yes, d is for depressed.