...Awful, beautiful life. My apologies to Darryl Worley (a country artist) for stealing this line from his song. Before any of you wonder(or I wonder myself) if I've gone off the deep end, let me just say that I am having a moment where I'm not consumed by my losses and our struggle with infertility. I'm having one of those times when I realize just how much I have to be grateful for. I was just checking on my kids before I went to bed myself and, as I bent over and kissed my youngest, I whispered "I love you." My precious little boy whispered back in his sleep filled almost unintelligible voice, "I love you too mama." How could I not realize just how lucky I am?
So, in the spirit of all the lists that have filled blogland lately...
The 10 things I'm most thankful for...
1)I have been married to my best friend and soulmate for over 10 years. Vic is my rock and my source of strength. I thank the lucky stars we found each other.
2)I have two wonderful boys who are healthy, happy, and generally great kids. No, they aren't perfect. I was ready to call 1-800-GypsiesRUs and have them carted away earlier today. But, they are our children and I love them dearly.
3)I have a realtively normal, sane family who has stuck with me through all of the insanity of the past few years.
4)My in-laws are truly wonderful people. If I had to pick a family other than my own to belong to, it would be the family I married into. Unlike many people, I dearly love my mother-in-law.
5)I've had the same best friend (other than my hubby) for over 20 yrs. Jennifer knows all my flaws and foibles and she still loves me. She is one of the rocks I've clung to.
6)I was able to overcome my notion of what I thought I had to do to be happy (have a high powered career) and do what truly makes me happy (stay home and be a wife and a mother). This is not meant to be a slam on anyone else. This is simply an observation about my own life.
7)I have a group of online friends who love me enough that they made me this quilt in memory of the babies I have lost...
8)We own our house and 5 acres of land out in a beautiful part of central NC. There were times we had to struggle hard to keep this and I am so thankful we held onto it.
9 and 10 will have to wait for another time. I'm exhausted and my brainis beginning to rebel and demand sleep. Thanks for wading through my overly saccharine post. I'm was just overwhelmed by the feeling that I am so lucky to have what I do that I had to write it down.