"Security is mostly a superstition. It does not exist in nature, nor do the children of men as a whole experience it. Avoiding danger is no safer in the long run than outright exposure. Life is either a daring adventure, or nothing. " -Helen Keller

Friday, January 28, 2005

I love this crazy, tragic, sometimes almost magic...

...Awful, beautiful life. My apologies to Darryl Worley (a country artist) for stealing this line from his song. Before any of you wonder(or I wonder myself) if I've gone off the deep end, let me just say that I am having a moment where I'm not consumed by my losses and our struggle with infertility. I'm having one of those times when I realize just how much I have to be grateful for. I was just checking on my kids before I went to bed myself and, as I bent over and kissed my youngest, I whispered "I love you." My precious little boy whispered back in his sleep filled almost unintelligible voice, "I love you too mama." How could I not realize just how lucky I am?

So, in the spirit of all the lists that have filled blogland lately...

The 10 things I'm most thankful for...
1)I have been married to my best friend and soulmate for over 10 years. Vic is my rock and my source of strength. I thank the lucky stars we found each other.
2)I have two wonderful boys who are healthy, happy, and generally great kids. No, they aren't perfect. I was ready to call 1-800-GypsiesRUs and have them carted away earlier today. But, they are our children and I love them dearly.

3)I have a realtively normal, sane family who has stuck with me through all of the insanity of the past few years.
4)My in-laws are truly wonderful people. If I had to pick a family other than my own to belong to, it would be the family I married into. Unlike many people, I dearly love my mother-in-law.
5)I've had the same best friend (other than my hubby) for over 20 yrs. Jennifer knows all my flaws and foibles and she still loves me. She is one of the rocks I've clung to.
6)I was able to overcome my notion of what I thought I had to do to be happy (have a high powered career) and do what truly makes me happy (stay home and be a wife and a mother). This is not meant to be a slam on anyone else. This is simply an observation about my own life.
7)I have a group of online friends who love me enough that they made me this quilt in memory of the babies I have lost...

8)We own our house and 5 acres of land out in a beautiful part of central NC. There were times we had to struggle hard to keep this and I am so thankful we held onto it.

9 and 10 will have to wait for another time. I'm exhausted and my brainis beginning to rebel and demand sleep. Thanks for wading through my overly saccharine post. I'm was just overwhelmed by the feeling that I am so lucky to have what I do that I had to write it down.

7 comments:

Julianna said...

How adorable are they!! Too precious.

I love the quilt. That is beautiful and so incredibly special.

I hope you are well.

Take care.

Suz said...

The quilt is beautiful. A true mark of a person is the friends that they have and you have some really wonderful friends.

The Lioness said...

YEY, a good day!!! And a lovely quilt, yes.

The Lioness said...

Kristin, no, you've got it wrong! I meant you ALL rock, not just my friend, don't even know who you mean, YOU ALL! And you, in particular, rock very loudly, I mean, you barely know me and came in w guns ablaze, and offered me sanctuary! Woman, of course you rock, you have no idea how much your commenst mean to me! And I'd write the same for you had you been brendaed, I just feel comfortable that T. will not think I'm overstepping boundaries but trust me - you get a troll, i'll be here to kick their bony asses. or padded ones, I don't care, I'll do it. You women have given me so much already, and receive so little too very often. The least i could do. Much, much love, your family kicks ass!

Kristin said...

Lioness...I am touched and honored. Honestly, I did understand what you meant. My post was suppose to say "your friends".

sweetisu said...

This is what I need to do more often - think of what I DO have and not what I don't. It's just easy to complain! ;)
Thanks for sharing and what beautiful boys you have! And that quilt is very very nice.

Ana said...

Yes, these are the best days, the ones were you can look at what you have instead of what you lost. I hope both of us get plenty of these days and as little as possible of the bad ones.

Thanks you for all you comments on my blog, they mean alot to me!