"Security is mostly a superstition. It does not exist in nature, nor do the children of men as a whole experience it. Avoiding danger is no safer in the long run than outright exposure. Life is either a daring adventure, or nothing. " -Helen Keller

Wednesday, March 23, 2005

I solemnly swear not to buy ANY hpts tomorrow at Wal-Mart.

No, its not time to test yet. I'm only about one week into the 2 week wait. However, I've decided for my sanity's sake (haha...me sane...thats a laugh) that I will not have any hpts in my house until I'm ready to test. Not having them around is the only way for me to resist the compulsive urge to test. I have never, ever had a good outcome when I've tested early. Yeah, I've tested as early as 11 dpo and gotten a positive but those positives didn't stick around. You know how it is when that bitch hope tantalizes you and then promptly turns around and smacks you down. I just don't want to go through that again. Being on progesterone has already got me imagining early pregnancy symptoms...I'm exhausted (I fell asleep in front of the tv the other night), I'm crabby, and, when I'm hungry, nothing sounds good. I know that its just the progesterone talking but, if I combine that with the presence of hpts, I know I would crack. So, my vow is to not test early. Hell, lets get daring...I vow not to test until I am one week late.

Bwahahahaha...isn't that just one of the funniest delusions you've heard of...an infertile who thinks she can hold out that long. Wish me luck y'all.

***I did it. I escaped Wal-Mart without a single hpt sneaking into my cart. I didn't even go into the pharmacy area.


Emma said...

It's like an addiction isn't it! Sure how you make it through, prepare for the worst, then if the best happens it's a wonderful surprise - that's what I do. But then I'm a bit of a pessamist at heart.

Fingers crossed for you!


Julianna said...

I dare you! One week LATE!! Is that possible?

Thinking of you my dear and wishing all good things come your way.

sweetisu said...

I double dare you!!!

It's so hard not to test when you know how it all works and which days you *can* test.
Once I was agonizing over testing and the possible results. Hubby said, why don't you just WAIT several weeks... Yup, he said SEVERAL!

Good luck Kristin. I hope this cycle results in a healthy babe for you.

DeadBug said...

Well done, Kristen! Glad you stepped away from the HPT's and got out of there unscathed.

That took some willpower!


The Lioness said...

Well done! Very impressed. And still hoping for you, very much.

[Bugs, her name is KristIn. *harumph* KristEn was the other cheerleader.)]

aliza at babyfruit said...

Wow! We are both in the same pre-pregnancy test boat, aren't we? I just remembered I have 2 leftover HPTs here but it will be an exercise in peeing futility if I were to use them now. April 1 or 2 might be about the right time for me to check. Hang in there!

aliza at babyfruit said...

I gave in - went to Wal-Mart and bought 4 hpts, the cheap kind to save money but not sensitive enough to test early. How are you doing? I'm losing my mind.